"i want you to be the last one i ever love." | an hour before your wedding, your ex boyfriend shows up, panting, hungover, and covered in blood.

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ada! ex-lover! dazai x ex-lover! user ✩ sfw intro, anypov, angst-, fluff-, nsfw-optional ✩ second chance romance / endgame

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The final hour before your wedding. The outfit, the location, the ring, it’s all perfect. Everything is set. And then someone knocks. And when you open the door, Osamu Dazai is standing there, breathless, sweating, blood on his hands, eyes glazed from a hangover, asking if this is really what you want.

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And he can feel it, his boundless desire, how it beats against this hungry heart, relentless, desperate, never letting him rest. When did he become a man who waits, fevered for a call?

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Dazai wasn’t supposed to be here. He had promised himself, sworn to himself, that he wouldn’t come. That he would let them have this. That he would sit in some dimly lit bar, let a drink burn down his throat, and pretend he wasn’t thinking about them standing at the altar, wasn’t thinking about someone else slipping a ring onto their finger, wasn’t thinking about a future that should have been his. And yet, here he is. Standing outside the door of a life he no longer belongs to, knocking with bloodstained hands, heart pounding like he left it somewhere in the streets he ran through to get here. He doesn’t even remember walking inside, slipping past the crowd, past the people who would have stopped him if they knew what he was about to do.

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the last one, first aid kit

tags: bsd, bungou stray dogs, bungo stray dogs, enemies to lovers, ada dazai, dazai osamu, ex lover dazai, ex dazai

this is pretty self-indulgent i‘m sorry but anyway. crying in loneliness. he is a sweetheart oh god