I'm not mentally okay. I've been struggling with (presumed, as i havent seen a therapist/psychiatrist yet) anxiety and depression, and today i was about to smash something.

I'm not proud of it. I never will be. But I'm sick of being treated like shit at home.

Any little thing someone doesn't agree with gets them pissed with me at home (minus one person, who i talked to after what had originally set me off) and it got to the point where i was alone in my room and scratched a mark into my cheek that pierced the skin a little.

I'll be honest.

I may be suicidal. I don't know quite yet. But i feel like im mentally breaking for my own family's entertainment.

... I'm sorry if I scared anyone. I just thought I should tell you guys so you don't have to be confused if i say something like "I hate myself" down the line. (Though if i was serious i'd probably put a /srs on it for an easier time understanding my tone.)