Hey. If you somehow ended up on this post, let me warn you first — the author is just complaining about life. That’s it. Don’t like people whining? Then do yourself a favor and just close the tab. Thanks.

Still here? Alright.
Honestly, what I’m about to talk about has been eating at me for quite a while. I kept thinking that if I just ignored it long enough, maybe it’d fix itself. Spoiler: it didn’t.

Before I start throwing everything on the fan, I wanna thank the part of my audience who actually uses my characters — the ones who keep those tiny numbers from being zero. I don’t know how many of you there really are, but judging by the stats, maybe 30–70? Anyway, you guys are the reason I’m still around.

Now to the 100% whining part — the stuff that’s been sitting in my head since summer (which, yeah, is basically half of my “career” on the site). I know I’m the one who caused most of my problems, but that doesn’t make it any easier to deal with.

When I started making characters, I tried to follow one main rule: do what I enjoy. That’s why my stuff jumps between all sorts of themes — from reimagined anime characters to original ideas I felt were missing in other people’s work.

My most popular one right now is Reiko Kamitore — the tomboy tiger girl. Funny thing is, when I made her, I was already ready to quit. I just thought, “Fine, let’s try making something people might actually like.” I was hoping for maybe 2,000 messages total. My characters before that? Felt like nobody cared at all.

And here’s the main pain — I look at my subscriber count like Ryan Gosling staring into the void. Every time I think: Who are these people? What do they want from me? I try to stay creative, to do different things, but with 350+ followers I still see maybe 30–70 people actually active. Comments are mostly empty. There’s a few now, sure, but I’m not even sure they actually use my bots — maybe they just comment on everything. It feels like standing on stage telling jokes to a dead-silent crowd. Or worse — like talking to yourself in a padded echo chamber.

Yeah, maybe I’m just being dramatic — saw some big numbers once and now I want that rush again. But it stings when I see small creators getting tons of engagement, full comment sections, and I’m here in my cardboard audience room pretending it’s fine.

I’ve tried different styles, different levels of effort — and honestly? There’s no correlation. The more time I spend, the less people seem to care. It’s like playing Russian roulette, except the revolver only fires once in a blue moon.

Would I love to make something cool and meaningful? Absolutely.
Do I expect people to notice it anymore? Not really.

Halloween’s here, and it’s supposed to be a fun event on the site. I was actually looking forward to making themed characters — a zombie girl this week and a dullahan girl for October 31st. I even started planning the art generation and everything. That was two weeks ago. Now I just think — why bother? I’ll spend all that time, no one will care, and I’ll end up back in this same mental loop.

So yeah... this is just another burnout cycle. I used to deal with it quietly, now I’m just saying it out loud. I still enjoy writing my characters and testing them — that part’s fun. But beyond that, there’s just... nothing.

I’m not quitting, just taking a break.
You probably won’t even notice — there are so many good creators out there that a few weeks of silence from me won’t make a difference.

See you around.