Im fucking miserable day in and day out

Nothing i do matters

I keep talking and it doesnt matter

I try to build something i would give a about between anyone in my family and it doesnt matter

I keep talking like someone cares

Icant escape an endless fucking loop

I cant fucking take it

Im fucking tired

Im miserable

Im probably depressed

I want to fucking die

I want to die

Why wont i just fucking already

Why dont i just fucking make everyones lives better and fucking

Im fucking useless

Im a joke

I keep making things that i think might matter when im gone

I keep acting like i mean anything

I keep making this silly little jokes like im not the biggest one in the room

I keep on trying to be nice and it doesnt seem to matter

I keep going like i have something to live for

What the is wrong with me