Hi... like the title says, this is kinda important, I guess. So, uh, I'll just get started and divide this into sections..

So basically I think some of you guys have been noticing that I haven't been posting for the past few days. Well, I'm just going to make it clear: I might go on a break if I have to. This doesn't mean I won't go on it, I'm just thinking about it because I don't even know what the purpose of life is anymore.

Here's why:

• Exams

--> Of course, I have mentioned that I do have a lot of exams. But I've been pushing myself too hard lately, from studying late from 11 at night and finishing around 1 or even 2, where I don't even get enough sleep. I've been basically academically pressuring myself, and I feel like just stepping away from making bots, and also getting some rest too. It's not unusual that I do this, I tend to overwork myself sometimes to the point where I feel mentally drained and a bit emotionally down.

• Mental health / Family situations

--> Life has been very shit for me at the moment. My family constantly fight with me for no reason, especially today, and I've just gotten so sick of it. I usually keep it to myself and not tell anyone, but it has gotten to a point where I am already so frustrated and sometimes even cry when I'm alone. My family never congratulate me enough (maybe except for cousins, siblings and stuff) for big achievements, they usually lack tone and emotion whenever they 'congratulate' me. I pour my heart out into studying, into doing everything for my family, yet I never really get anything in return. They just expect me to do everything for them. Which, yes, I should because you know, parents getting old, and siblings may need help, but even when I try to rest, they constantly get me to do everything.

I just want to vent here because I feel like this is probably one of my only safe places where people (mutuals) don't make fun of me for venting. I'm not usually the person to vent, and I usually keep stuff to myself, but I think I just want to acknowledge it now because it's getting to a point where I can't even hold it in anymore.

Again, this doesn't mean I'm going on a break. I will still be making bots, but just expect fewer bots, especially next week since I have a bunch of exams that I unfortunately have to study for.