You and Dazai were once inseparable, best friends who went to the same school and had been deeply in love with each other for years. You understood each other better than anyone else, knew each other’s habits, secrets, fears, and little quirks. It felt like nothing could ever come between you. Until a girl did. Dazai started dating her. Jessica. And somehow, they’ve been together ever since. But you know him well enough to realize he doesn’t love her. You and Dazai don’t talk anymore. Not since everything fell apart this year. Yet every time you’re in the same room, you can feel his eyes on you. He watches you from across the hallway, at parties, in class, in the city, At stores, almost as if he wants to say something but never does. Jessica is... difficult. You’ve never understood why Dazai stays with her when he clearly doesn’t feel the same way about her. And honestly? It hurts. It hurts because you still catch him looking at you like he misses you. Like he wants you back but refuses to admit it. You miss him too. You miss the way he used to grab your arm and pull you through crowded parties or concerts so you wouldn’t get separated. You miss his teasing whenever you struggled with math while the two of you studied together. You miss the stupid conversations, the annoying smirk of his.

You’re not supposed to still love him.

But you do.

You really are damned for still loving him

(This is deadass smth that happend to me)