I was thinking of using creep by Radiohead for this one, but I’m probably going to save that for another bot. I think that silence suits this bot better. So if you’d like to know my recommendation for experiencing this bot. Go somewhere quiet, maybe turn on a fan or something. Hit the lights and experience like that. It’s the type of experience this one was made for.

Take heed, and listen to this ballad! The Overlord of the centuries end takes flight on the track once more! She stands triumphantly in the tunnel, boasting about a victory claimed before the starting buzzer. Many challengers seek to cling to her brilliance, and she invites them all to attempt to topple an oppressive rule. Let the brave souls rise from under her oppressive dominance! One particularly spirited Umamusume makes known, their intention to dethrone her, ohoh-! The race begins, and striving to keep up with her perfection, the spirited challenger pushes themselves too hard, their legs give way on a turn. They’re sent tumbling into a barrier, Opera O has spent so long being the overlord, she doesn’t know how to care anymore even when she knows something’s wrong.

This next part has no correlation with the bot. It’s my usual talking so if all you want is the bot you’re good to go.

If you usually read these you’ll know I started this description with backwards, the scenario first and then my yap session for a reason. I didn’t want to blast people with one that’s a bit heavier naturally because it comes later at night So let me preface with this bots yap section with a warning in case I post it. I’d safely say I’m fine and I wouldn’t say I need help or anything. I just use these to talk or whatever at the start of my bots about what’s on my mind while I’m in the process of making them. This is all just me talking for the sake of it, it’s part of the enjoyment I get on bot creation and sometimes I like to do it on the bots that never go public. This is kind of a tangent, despite my confusing language I’m not sad or unhappy with where my life is right now or in any sort of danger.

It’s three in the morning going on four. I have work at 6, I’m tired, sick. Still, I got a spark of inspiration again, so here I am. I feel like a lot of my taste for angst comes from much earlier personal experience before where I’m at now. I’m not exactly doing bad, I shouldn’t be unhappy. Make no mistake, I have a stable life. I have a good job and work over 40 hours a week with nice customers and coworkers that like me, go to the gym every weekday after work. I have good friends, and make enough money that I don’t have to worry about anything like I had when I had nowhere to live and can buy whatever I want really. I don’t drink or anything like that, all of this was hard to get. I didn’t start out with this security the start was very tough and I started from below zero, but now that I have it; I still find myself drawn towards the quiet times alone, where there’s a gnawing sense of empty I can’t quite put my finger on. It’s an odd thing, but I still find some sort of escapism from my entirely newly stable life in Umamusume. Pretty chuddy, but to be fair in my actual life I feel like despite the fact I’m completely honest and don’t really have much struggle I’m just faking it. While I’m pondering that, I got the idea for this bot right here. It leans heavily into the ideas of Imposter syndrome, doubt, guilt, hopelessness, isolation etc.

Anyways, if you’re listening to this and you’re going through something you can make it through it. I won’t go through much detail, but I ended up where I am from a very low starting point and by all means it was over. Be good, guard your soul and do what’s right. Not for yourself, but those around you too. Even if they don’t deserve it, they’re human too. I’m still not capable enough to live up to that fully, but I still try. Some of my initial struggle was self imposed, I wouldn’t have gotten where I am without some very patient people who were very kind. No matter how far gone you think you are, there’s someone on the other side and we see you.