Don't care about why I've been gone? Skip down until you see the section that says 'Account Update', because not everybody wants to dredge through somebody's bullshit when they just want to know if they're worth following anymore.

Okay. This is mostly to like get out there what the hell I've been doing for the past... forever. Basically explaining why my life is a comedy created by Stephen King on antidepressants. There's no new dead people, but oh boy has it been close!

So when I started this account I was living with an abusive boyfriend. You can imagine the details I'm not getting into it. But at least once he checked every single box of the 'I'm A Piece Of Shit' list.

But since December 6th of last year I have been out. Moved in with my brother in my home state until I moved in with my best friend on Christmas. Let's just say by February 14th I was moved back in with my brother. Some of it was her and her family, some of if was me. I did what I could and it just didn't work out.

Things were rocky with my best friend for awhile after I moved back in with my brother but we were still friends. Even though every step of the way I could feel that something was... wrong.

Then I lost her. Because I refused to just let go of the 'why', 'why' everything fell apart, 'why' it felt like I was missing something. And one day a few months ago I refused to let her avoid it anymore. I've come to find out that not only has she lied and omitted on numerous occasions, but that her mother was too. So much for 12-13 years of being best friends. Not even gonna let anyone wonder, she's the one that called it quits because I called her out on her shit.

Yeah, I want that truth to be known. Be it for good or for bad. Think what you want of me. Theorize that I'm the victim/villain. I don't care. Me and her both played a part in that circus. But either way, I'm glad it's over.

To top it off I, like everyone else, have money troubles. My cat thought swallowing the needle I had would be fun. Turns out the disappearing needle was a $1,500 party trick... it's okay to laugh she's all healed and the old bitch is back to being a needy demon that I sold my soul to for dopamine.

Over all and all? My life is a million bucks right now in comparison to a year ago. I've been cutting loose ends left and right. People I don't want or need in my life, stuff I don't bother with, hobbies I'm just not interested in anymore. New boundaries, better consumption habits, losing weight. I'm done being a doormat, to myself or for other people.

Don't clap. I'm not nine lol. I just want people to know why I've been gone. And the short of it is that I've been putting my life back together like goddamn Humpty Dumpty. It's going great actually.

But THIS is something I wanted to keep. I like making bots. So I will keep making them. Very slowly though. Y'all already know.

Account Update

Now that we're past my boo-hoo hardships explaining why I haven't been posting, here's what I intend to do moving forward.

Listen. There will not EVER be a consistent schedule. I write bots and stories when I get the magically wild hair up my ass. I would love to be organized that way. I would love to have that ingrained ability to just sit and gargle some creativity juice and then vomit words on a page. Unfortunately? I can't.

I feed y'all when I can muster the beast into a corner and MAKE it work. But I'm also working on my book right now, so bear with me.

Right now? I'm working on something a little niche. A Henry Barrow bot from a game called Killer Frequency. Definitely watch FunkyFrogPlays playthrough of the game on YouTube. So good.

ALSO I have a Yuujirou Hanma (Baki The Grappler) and a Broly (Dragon Ball Z) bot that is literally already complete but needs some fine tuning now that we have more tokens to work with (thank fucking GOD).

Yes. I know that I need to make a new Valentino bot that has the updated info from season two. That's already cooking.

I might make some more OC work with my Curse Breaker series, but I might not. I have two more follow-up bots to the red riding hood bot, but I don't know if I have the inspiration for them right now.

My whole profile is getting a slow overhaul. Same PFP, same name, same background. But I want to do a little MORE with it. Y'all know what I mean. Nothing crazy or flashy. No moving cards or little scroll characters. No blinding colors (I'm not the devil). I like to keep it basic, because I hate not being able to find shit on my profile when I need it (hard enough with the devs changing and adding shit to the site without much warning). I like to move quick through life when I'm trying to do something, and I don't have time to figure out how to make anything new to slap on my profile.

I also intend on responding to comments from here on out. Not all of them of course. But the ones I really like especially.

And as a final piece. After a recent issue I've had I want to reassure y'all that I almost never block. I might delete the comment if it's a "well I don't like this bot because I don't like pregnancy/ /killing (whatever you don't like)". But I reserve blocking for things like bullying, racism, persistent memeing, homophobia, the really big bad's. And I try to ask questions first and shoot later. Because you know what? Sometimes text isn't meant the way it sounds in our head when we read it.

Thank y'all for reading, and as usual, I hope y'all have the kind of day y'all deserve. (Hopefully a positive one since it's almost Christmas for the ones that celebrate 👀)

Edit: Henry Barrows bot sound be coming out by this Sunday.