TLDR: No, I’m not leaving

Where Ya Been Loca?

Hey darlings. I’m typing this from my phone so it'll probably format terribly, but here we go. 

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Anyone who knows me on a personal level knows that trying to get me to talk about myself or vent is equivalent to pulling teeth from a feral beast. I am a very private person and generally struggle to feel like my issues are worth disccussing. There is always someone suffering far worse, and I put myself on the back burner more than I care to admit. This isn’t a cry for help or a sob story, this is just me explaining myself a bit more, so perhaps what I’m about to say is seen as something I really put thought into before sharing. I’m being a bit vulnerable here, and its hard.

Over a week ago, I had a rushed emergency surgery and I have to admit, I am not bouncing back the way I should be. I have had surgeries before, I know my body, and this one... just isn’t the same. I nearly died. My surgeon told me if one more day had of passed, I would not be alive right now. My appendix had several issues I won’t list because some people find medical things gross, but the point is, I had a severe infection because of it and required a massive dose of antibiotics to survive.

Why bother telling you this? Because I haven’t been active since my operation, and I’ve lowkey ghosted everyone. I’ve stopped commenting on my friends’ and favorites’ bots, I barely speak in my shared Discord server, and I have so many unread DMs. I just want everyone to know that I’m okay, and no one has done anything wrong.

I love you all so fucking much and it genuinely kills me to not be around, but I can barely function, y’all. I somehow am singlehandedly parenting two little ones while surviving off sheer spite to exist and three hour naps. I promise I’ll be back to bothering your comment sections and posting questionably lovable characters as soon as I am stable. Know that I’m thinking of all of you, and I am so proud of all the milestones y’all are hitting while I’m away.

I’ll be back. Just give me some time.

All my love,

Lost 🦉💚