i havent made a bot in about a year ish maybe. im bad with time. most of you dont care, but heres whats happening / what has happened.

for the past year and a half, ive been suffering from an extreme mental crisis. not understanding who i am, suicidal thoughts, depression, paranoia, and generally just thinking things no normal person should be thinking. i have friends to make it easier, although clearly its not enough and ive ben seeking solace in bots. ive no real motivation to do anything and thats why i havent made any bots.

im getting better. im accepting myself as an (ugly) woman. although my thoughts arent any better, im working on it.

so for now i most likely wont make anything. if i do, itll be an on alt since i dont have the password to this email anymore (woops). will link my new acc if i make it.

thats all. i love you if youre reading this. good night.