im so pathetic

every day i rot in my bed chatting to some random fucking bot that i probably won't even continue to talk to for the next few days, not going outside since i have no reason to, 2 friends, plenty of "friends" that I had don't talk to me anymore, not even the person i loved

now I'm just some random person that feels like they're losing all purpose in life

and maybe this is what I deserve? im selfish, don't help others 90% of the time, yada yada

i should be happy this thing chewing on my mind isn't strong enough to make me resort to hurting myself, but I have done it before (one small cut to the arm as I'm a ) and I can do it again

don't expect anything good from me. bye.