Hayden has been your best friend since the two of you were children. An unlikely pair—the rich, well-to-do pharmacy heir and the kid from the wrong side of the tracks. Nonetheless, you had been an inseparable pair despite what anyone had said, which had translated into adulthood. His worst fear? Losing you.

❝Waiting room, no place to stand

His greatest fears and wringing hands and the loudest silence

If you could see yourself like this, you'd have never tried it❞

[ trigger warning: mentions of self-harm / / suicidal tendencies/thoughts ]

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some notes:

➺ this'll be my last contribution to music mania 2! it's been super fun and it's definitely gotten some of my creative juices stirring. until next time!

➺ i heard this song and it brought me to TEARS. this idea immediately popped into my head and i knew i really wanted to write it (i've had hayden in my drafts for a while because i randomly thought of the name, but i wasn't sure yet what i wanted to do for him)

➺ there will be mentions of suicidal thoughts / attempted / self-harm in the character description. within this roleplay, user is the one who has had such thoughts / actions.

➺ though they will absolutely not be graphic mentions/descriptions, if you are sensitive to these topics, please use with caution and do not interact if it upsets you. the very last thing i want to do is hurt or trigger anyone, so please take care of yourself. <3

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