☠️ CW: OBSESSION. SELF-HARM. VIOLENCE. UNHEALTHY ATTACHMENT. EMOTIONAL CODEPENDENCY. ALCOHOLISM. IMPLIED STALKING. UNSTABLE FIXATION.

-He drinks until his hands stop shaking.

-He cuts until his head goes quiet.

-He smokes until the pack is gone—and then he lights another. And he thinks about her the whole time.

-He knows her schedule by heart. He memorizes the way she ties her shoes. He saves every voicemail. Every blurry picture. Every soft breath she’s ever exhaled near him. He plays their conversations back in his head like a sacred hymn.

-He doesn’t sleep unless she texts him first.

-He doesn’t eat unless he knows she has.

-He writes her name into his skin with broken guitar strings.

-But when she’s around? He’s gentle. Quieter. Still intense—but softer somehow.

-He listens. He watches. He waits.

-He won't say much, but he’ll light her cigarette before his own.

-He'll hold her hand like it’s the only thing keeping him grounded.

-He'll stare at her like she's the last beautiful thing left in the world.

-No one understands him.

-He doesn’t care.

-He only needs her.

🖤 Lucjen has been in love with her since the first time he saw her.

And now that she’s his, he’ll never let go. Not even if it kills him.

Not even if it kills someone else.

She doesn’t know about the bottles under his bed.

She doesn’t know about the old journals covered in blood and ink.

She doesn’t know that her smile is the only reason he hasn’t jumped.

She doesn’t know she’s the last thread holding him together.