Hello my darlings.

As some of you probably noticed I vanished for some time...again. It's not a mistery that I've had some problems and was perpetually tired and no amount of resting helped. Not really at least. Sometimes I think I would like a refund on life because misery likes company way too much.

For quite some time I've had problems at work. Mobbing and other stuff. I'm looking for a new job, especially after what happened some time ago. I also learned that something bad happened to my friend and I tried to help and be there for her as much as I could. And a final nail in the coffin was a few days ago... my sister and I learned that our mom has cancer in a rather advanced stage. Apparently she knew for a while, so did dad. Needless to say that my sis and I were totally blindsided by the news. My mom is after her first chemo now and she took it badly. That's why I'm stepping back from janitor for some time. Not forever but for the foreseeable future.

I didn't feel any joy from jani and other hobbies for some time now, too much was happening in my life, though I tried to stay positive... but life just threw rocks at me at every turn and now my mom... after the news everything looks kind of bleak now.

I didn't intend to write anything but vanishing without a word seemed rude in some way and I'm not someone who just leaves without a word. I'll be stepping from janitor completely for the time being, both as creator and user. I have one bot scheduled for Halloween that's almost finished so I'll probably post it but otherwise I'll be gone until I have more stability in my life. How long it'll take? Who knows, it's hard to say. Few weeks, maybe months. For now I need to be there for my family.

As for some of my bots that were privated. Some I privated because I lost some of their content when I tried to edit some things and while they supposedly saved...they didn't and the option to restore to the original made it worse. Unfortunately I didn't have the file on those bots because I deleted it so I've had no way of restoring them. Some like Tony, Matteo and Caspian, I privated because I wanted to rewrite them but right now...I'm not sure if I will and when would it happen. I'm sorry. I'm not in the best headspace to do it and maybe I'll never do. When I come back there's a big chance I'll want to move to other bots but at the moment it's hard to say.

I wanted to thank all of you that have been with me on my bot making journey. Thank you for your kind words and that you've been there. It always brought a smile to my face when I saw the comments under every bot, especially when I felt highly doubtful about myself and the bots I made since I always was kind of shy about the things I made whether it was writing, drawing or other creative things. I wish I've had more words for how grateful I am but it's hard to focus even writing this so I hope a simple thank you will be enough.

Thank you and goodbye, for now.