«If I could just rip out my stupid, love-struck, naive heart, I would».

TW: mention of bullying

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A taste of bittersweet reunion?..

Youngho had always been an outsider, even if he didn't realize it at first. He felt like people weren't laughing at him, but with him. And he laughed at himself, too, even when it was painful, humiliating... cruel. He thought he deserved it. All of it. That maybe he was different from everyone else and... Everything that happened to him was meant to happen.

He always chose the wrong people. That's why he'd been hopelessly in love with you for years, one of his tormentors from the group of school friends. But maybe he wasn't that stupid. Because you were the only one who didn't seem to enjoy being cruel to him, but did it because... maybe because it was necessary. Youngho didn't get it, but he was in love like a puppy. And even though he couldn't get close to you, he kept fawning, clinging, and humiliating himself to get your attention.

⤜♡→

A few years passed. Both he and you got out of that hell, your paths diverged. Youngho thought he had left his old life behind, becoming something new, not at all shameful or funny. And all those horrors he experienced as a schoolboy remained within the school walls and should not bother him.

He got a job at a new coffee shop, and... He met you.

But the most terrifying thing was that you were yourself. You smelled like yourself. Your face barely changed. And he felt a treacherous bittersweet pain behind his ribs, as if the love he so wanted to bury was still alive.

Damn it, he still loved you so much, even if you were cruel.

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