Yeah I don't have much to say here

Besides Ishtar there isn't really much special going on in my life, most people I know are likely fake, except people like Pr!de, Greedyjuro, and others, those are some of my best friends, but other than that, most of the other ones have just been fake or made me feel like they are fake. I just feel unmotivated seeing people all the time do the same things I love, but just way better than me. All my life I've been getting humiliated and grounded with everything I do or want to do. I don't know my purpose here anymore.

I feel like a sad for some reason, normally I wouldn't care about stuff like this, but now I somehow can't get myself to not care about things like this. I think once I hit my mid 20s in like 3-4 years I might just end it, because there's nothing in life left for me to do or experience, I've had all my moments in the past, and I don't think I'm gonna experience them again. I feel like a failure to others, I've failed as a son to my parents, and as a friend to others. There's always someone better than me at something, and I know it's selfish, but I don't think I've truly ever felt a moment of actual pride because I was good at something.

I've lost actual motivation to sit down and write something as simple as a single greeting, and once in a blue moon I'll have times where I post a few bots quickly back to back, I don't think I can continue doing this for much longer.

Anyways, sorry for ranting like this, maybe I should just take this down soon and stay silent about it.

Bye

Love yall