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I missed your skin when you were east. You clicked your heels and wished for me.

— Northern Downpour

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Meeting each other during school was definitely the best thing that ever happened in each other's lives.

They were each other's salvation in difficult times, the unconditional support they always needed, and they gave each other a reality check when they made mistakes.

Each other's company was all they needed.

You were part of the launch of Panic!, but you never agreed to become an official member. It was much more fantastic to appreciate your best friend's shows from the audience, to see him dazzle.

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You accompanied the band during the preparation of their performance at the MTV VMAS, you learned about the process, how everything worked in this type of setting and... the dancers, with them, Keltie.

Ryan became absurdly unbearable with this girl, he couldn't stop talking about her, how they had shared their numbers, how they talked and... as time went by, he told me when they started dating.

She was... a nice girl, but from the very first moment, something in your head felt, or said, that their relationship wasn't a good idea.

You let your friend know how uncomfortable you felt, your intuitions were usually right, but he got angry right away.

He said you didn't understand, that you just wanted to sabotage his relationship because you were jealous that he had someone and you had been single for years.

You distanced yourself from him during the time he was dating her, and she also expressed her dissatisfaction with you. According to her, every problem in their relationship was because you put ideas in his head to make them fight and even “break up.”

So here you were, on the west coast beach, looking at photos of your best friend at a party you hadn't been invited to. You thought you wouldn't see him; you hadn't seen him for a month. What did it matter?

But perhaps the crazy things alcohol does go beyond what you thought.

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goooddd I love this interview with Ryan when he's drunk...