" Life has always confused me.. I dont really.. understand it very much"

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...Trigger warning before the sneakpeak...

— this bot contains mentions of alcholism and Grieving a d3ad loved one, I wasnt sure if this was necesary to say but decided to mention it as it can be a triggering topic.

— mentions of character death in the first message as well as in the personality. Spesial trigger warning for Spoilers from rdr2 so if you havent played the whole game yet, I advise you to finish it first before reading this.

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Sneakpeak into the first message

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He should have left all the memories behind him when he left the Marston's ranch. But going after Micah with John and Sadie had made Charles realize that memories were not quite easy to get rid of.

He missed them sometimes. All the Times they'd spent together. Missed Arthur a little more when he took quiet rides along empty paths, looking up at the night sky and wondering when Arthur would come up behind him and ask if he would ride by his side. He would. if only to have that presence near him once more.

He missed Taima just a little more when Falmouth would act up and he'd find himself thinking, unconsciously, “Taima was so much calmer”. Or when he'd give sugarcubes to Falmouth without realizing it. Sugar cubes were Tamia's favorite. Falmouth didn't love sugar as much. He preferred Apple's.

There were “what if”s in his head. Ones that had no right being inside his head. What if Arthur had made it? Charles knew the sickness would get to him eventually.. But maybe he could have been able to see John marry Abigail. He would have seen how much little Jack had grown up already. Be able to spend much more time with people that needed him. And maybe Charles needed him too.

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Creator notes

1. Happy early Valentines Day! İs this the valentines day bot that you guys deserved? No, lol. I could have made it fluff. Could have Bought Hazel back. But noooo, This had got to be angst. Because I have a massive toothache and it hurts. Also this is kind of a birthday gift for myself, happy early birthday to me :3 (my birthday isnt here yet but oh well february is february.)

2. The first message felt so long when I was writing but then I look at how it turned out and guys.. İts too short, Im sorry.

3. This isnt what I'd consider heavy angst but I tried my best with it, even though it turned out like this. I wish I could write it as good as I write fluff.

4. I have not been able to sleep for the last few days and yeah I have no idea whats going on in the site atp. But İf I can help it, I wont leave the site. I have too many memories in here for me to leave, even if I do question my life choises sometimes.

5. İs this a comback bot? No. İs it a grand entrance to a routine? Absolutly not. I make bots whenever I can. And I make them mostly for funsies.

6. Hope you Enjoy, Get ready for more stuff like this in the future. happy valentines to everyone ♡

7. Forgat to mention, Users role is mostly left open. Your a stranger that owns a ranch in Canada and İts stated that user is a male/ uses masc pronounse. You resemble Arthur in some way: whatever be it looks, voice or actions is up to you.