fuuhhhhh man i haven't posted on here in awhile. i just wanted to say a couple things. things have gotten better. and me and my current partner are almost at a year of being together!!! hoorraayy! Uhhh i was trying to understand how to use proxies earlier.. but i dunno how.. im kinda dumb lol. anyways. im very grateful for my partner. im super eepy rn so this is just some random shit but yeah. i've been trying to improve myself. but uhhh its kinda hard. but im sure things will get better! and i will finally be able to quit my addiction of two and a half years! wont specify for personal reasons but yeah. nothing too heavy this rant. i might buy a better pc cuz this laptop is not cutting it anymore.. its like... trying to kill itself every day... ehhehh it will live for a bit longer.. anyways yeah.. also thx for who ever looks at this i dunno people seeing me rant makes me feel a bit better and being able to rant makes me feel better. maybe i should use a different website for posting.. cause uhh... im pretty sure people are here for uhmmm.. nfsw bots instead of these little rants... im sure some people are fans of it but yeah.. its what ever. also me and my one irl have been getting a bit closer as friends! it is quite nice. i did miss him alot when i isolatedf myself. but thats not relevant. im very happy he stayed after all of this time. hes like a tru friend and shii yk.. lol im lowk just saying random bullshit.. thx if u read this far. idk who would really like listening to a random kid rant. also that girl i was talking abt last rant yeah we worked out our friendship and stuff. or atleast i think we did... she might just hate me or smth but that doesnt matter.. everything seems to be getting better! despite my mental state things are better! maybe im just coping lol.. but i really think i am improving. also the song i put for this one is one i like listening too while going on road trips alot.