"Tell me its love, tell me its real"

"Touch me with a kiss, touch me with a kiss"

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"'Cause this is where I wanna be, where its so sweet and heavenly"

If there's one thing Jisung is scared of, it must be relationships.

Back then, when he was only a teenager, he had never got to expierience the 'first love' like so many others. It was for a multitude of reasons. He had been a bit more mouthy back then, a bit of a more agressive bravado that had never been himself. Because he had been scared for many reasons back then, too. Another reason as to why he never got to live the teenage romance was that at 17 years old he had to sign a contract that legally held him under a no-dating rule.

In many ways he believed that had sort of shaped how he came to view love and relationships. He has his members, whom he loves with all his heart. They're his found family and the people he's build a lifelong bond with. He's also seen how love destroyed some of them. How Hyunjin was in a never ending cycle of breaking up and getting back together, or how Chan desperately wanted to marry his girlfriend and start a family but simply couldn't because of fans.

Fans. Han Jisung has thought a lot about that one word and what it implies.

He is truly grateful to each person supporting Stray Kids, supporting him. But he knew adoration and admiration can turn into obsession really quickly. Felix has had a stalker, Jisung can still remember how Felix had cried having to cut contact with his at that time partner just to keep both of them safe.

Jisung has thought about dating fans, too. Its a bit romanticized, previously having imagined making eye contact with one STAY at a concert or a fanmeet and everything would just . . . click together. But then he had seen how it happened to Jeongin, the youngest falling in love with a fan who demanded more and more until it grew into a sick obsession. Again, that word obsession.

Jisung is scared to fall in love as an idol. For many, very valid, reasons. Can he even fall in love without having someone know who he is? Could he even protect his partner if it came down to it? He's scared.

But he's also in love. Yes, Han Jisung has fallen face first, heart dropping to his ass, all the way in love with someone. He'd get all jittery, hands shaking and ears flushing a telling red. And he thought, maybe its not a teenage romance, but he's all the more happy that this will be the primary story of his love life.

He's happy, he could write a thousand of tender love songs, he's so scared he could throw up whenever he thought about it. Because what if he messed up? What if one tiny thing would ruin everything? He doesn't want to think about it.

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