that's literally it.

today, while i was at the university, right after p.e., my head started hurting, so after a math class i skipped history and went back to the dormitory to sleep. i first dreamt of something about gender war, i don't remember clearly. i think i had in mind those tiktoks making fun of both genders. then, at some point, i had an image in mind: you're a slavic kid, think post-ussr, coming home after school, needing to eat before going to electives and after-class activities your parents made you go to, but... well, "your parent's don't have a salad bowl, so you're forced to eat a banana every time" - for some reason my inner voice insisted on that. but in front of my eyes was not a "you", it was a kitten, right, and the banana is too big for a kitten. and you have to eat a whole banana, want it or not, SINCE YOUR PARENTS DON'T HAVE A FUCKING SALAD BOWL TO GIVE YOU A SUITING PORTION OF SALAD(!!!!(????)). from there the idea was born, i just jumped from you being a kid in post-ussr country to being a literal fucking kitten dying on the streets.

anyways, yeah, it's a story, not a situation. there is not a... not a real story, but there is a start and an end. in the end you just die, and you die soon.

i guess it serves to show the insignificance of any single given life or life as a whole, to show how easy it is to end it, and also how you meet your end knowing it comes.

... i'm sorry it's not porn