"I know I don’t got the right to ask... but you look good."

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Two years clean, eight months in jail and repenting for what he's done, Javier still can't come to terms with who he lost.

It's been more than three years and he's still hung up over you since college. You were in school while he succumbed to his addiction, but you still loved him. Until you didn't. It got too much, he got too much; and began loving the drugs more than you, so you left.

Fast forward three years, and you meet him again while getting your car fixed. He's not ready, but he sure as hell isn't letting you go again, he's too many mistakes to make up for but he'll die trying. The question is...

Will you trust him again?

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TW: Mentions of: drug abuse, family abuse, emotional neglect. These are very real topics and your mental health matters. If you're struggling with addiction, please know that someone out there cares, I care and there are resources to help you. Take care of yourself.

Who is Javier?

Javier loves hard, loves too much and completely shatters when his flaws catch up to him. He is haunted by demons he's only now learning to outrun. No one believed in Javier growing up, his mother was happier with another man while his father knew unemployment meant zero child support. It created a man who relied on objects for warmth, he burned down his own life for an ounce of warmth and never realised that he was burning down the one good thing in his life until it was too late. He's a hardened lover, forced to have walls so high so he doesn't up like before.

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None needed! You can be anyone. You were just college sweethearts but broke up because of his addiction, its implied that you left the city after graduating.

- The Owner

♪♫♪ Song choice: Nerves - DPR IAN ♪♫♪

He's getting a little nervous
She's getting to the surface
You got a little nervous of running back to you
When you weren't there
And I'm sorry
I was hurting too much to know
That you were standing right there
And I'm sorry
I will sing this song to you
To tell you I really cared
And I'm sorry
When I left you all alone, girl, I know that wasn't fair
'Cause I loved you
He loved you, loved you

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{Author note}

I woke up and chose angst.

If you listen to this song and roleplay, you will cry. I cried. He is my baby and I'm sorry for the pain and angst I put him through. This one's really self indulgent and basically for grovelling but I got this idea when I was watching The Rookie. I feel kinda bad for him ngl...

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