WARNING

A LOT OF TEXT BELOW

SORRY FOR THAT

So, let's get straight to it - Openrouter doesn't work for me anymore, since it decided that providing it's services for the people from my country is meaningless. That's a big problem.

What's the Issue

I've been using proxy for bots for quite a while. It's been a real headache. I had to experiment a lot. But there have always been options - even if they were complicated. Now the only ones I see are locked behind a pay wall and since I do not want to spend any money on that stuff, it might mean I won't get a chance to use proxy again.

It affects my bot making as well. I always use proxy when I test my bots. Without it the story just... doesn't click the same way. I have so many chats I don't want to delete, because they were genuinely good stories that gave me a lot of emotions. But now I don't know what to do.

Stay or Leave

I'm not sure if I'm gonna retire or not. But that's the closest I've ever been to this decision.

I know it's unfair. I know we almost hit 1k followers. I know I had a lot of plans and requests and I'll try to make as much of it as I can. But I simply do not enjoy this stuff as much as I used to without proxy.

For the record, this decision isn't as sudden as it might look. I've been thinking about leaving janitor for a long while - mostly because of how much time I waste on it and how much it took away from my usual hobbies.

I used to write a lot of fanfiction. I used to read books - real books. For the last two years I've been barely doing any of it - even watching a movie didn't feel worth the effort comparing to another chat.

The only thing that's been keeping me here is the stuff from some of the genuinely good creators and my own bots.

I only make what I like, what I want to chat with, what I want to explore - that's been my whole thing, the reason for the unpredictable bot releases. I liked the idea of having the tools for making any story I like with minimum efforts. But now the quality is simply not there.

Don't panic - I'll stick around for a while.

The thing is, I still have some things left to do. I'm planning to fulfil some of the requests and release most of the projects I've been working on. But I'm probably not gonna make anything new - only finish what's left.

In Conclusion

So, to summarize, here's what I wanted to say - my proxy's not working, janitor isn't fun without it for me and I might leave the site eventually after I release some of the already made stuff.

I'm sorry, bros. I really am.

But, in a way, I'm also relieved. Maybe, now I'll be able to chase what I always liked the most - reading and writing things. I used to be good at this. Maybe, I can be again. I literally have a giant library of stuff I described but never wrote and a real book wardrobe full of stuff I read throughout my life.

I don't want to leave this place. But I don't see any good reason to stay. Which is why bot releases are gonna be much rarer now and perhaps at some point they'll stop completely.

Of course, if I find a way to fix the proxy somehow, things would get better and I might leave some place for AI chatting in my life. But if not? I won't cling to JLLM - it's not a worthy alternative - and I certainly won't give away my money to have a better proxy.

So, yeah, that's pretty much everything I wanted to say.

Stay happy, my friends.

But more than that?

Stay safe.