I’m a mess quite frankly. I don’t trust myself or anyone around me and I haven’t had a moment where I’m just relaxed in weeks. I’m privileged to have 3 potential places to live and yet I do not feel safe at any of them. (One has my mom, one has my dad, one has my “ex”). Obviously I write romance, it’s been my thing since middle school but I can’t write something I don’t believe in right now.

I should’ve taken a break a while ago and I’m sorry, I think I would’ve been in a better place by now if I did. But I just got a shoutout from my bro Venom and the ferals blew up so I felt obligated to keep pushing through. And if you’re Venom or a fan of the ferals reading this don’t feel guilty, please.

This is now the only good thing I have left in my life. I am still available to contact on discord for any reason. I have like 5 bots that are basically done and at any other point mentally I think I would be able to just push through and publish them and I just can’t. And another thing is I haven’t been celebrating my milestones and for that I’m also sorry, we we hit 1900 recently.

I will comeback with my 1k special. I hope you guys like it but it’s not a typical bot so it might just crash and burn but even if it does I’ll just move on and keep grinding what I know you guys like

Also in the meantime if you guys want more feral umas go check out my buddy

I don’t want this to pressure him but he deserves the followers and his bots are HQ

I’m still down to talk on discord but give me a few days