So, hello everyone.

I’ll start right away with the first problem. In my country, some messengers and some other apps are being blocked on a massive scale. It all started with YouTube way back in 2024, and now in my country, without a VPN, neither Instagram, Telegram, Discord, WhatsApp, nor Viber work. It’s a real nightmare, since many of my friends are abroad and I can’t even talk with them without using proxy. Not at all.

The second problem: the laws in my country. They contradict the Constitution, but people are forced to put up with them, because on the one hand, if you keep quiet, you can live more or less peacefully. On the other hand, let’s say you end up in jail simply because, as an LGBTQ+ person, you posted a photo with your partner—because you love them. Like there’s a lot of cases about it. :(

If you say something bad about your government - you’ll end up rotting in jail.

By the way,

Nothing has been said about the janitor yet—the authorities won’t block it, at least not yet. But all this crap never amounts to zero, so anything can happen.

You might ask me: why can’t I leave the country? It’s simple: I’m a student and I just can’t do it remotely. I won’t finish my five years of study until 2030, and by that time, leaving the country will most likely be off-limits.

The worst part of this situation is that I simply can’t help but be drowning in this mess, but at the same time, I can’t accept what’s happening around me. This isn’t a cry for help—it’s a story about something I can no longer keep quiet about.

I remember a free Russia. I remember how happy I was when I used to hang out with my friends back in 2016–2021. I still miss those days. Back then, people were more accepting of your sexual orientation, and there was no military propaganda in schools (unfortunately, I experienced it later). Now they’ve tried to draft me into a special military operation, but my health problems saved me. I was just lucky not to become cannon fodder.

Now men are dying in the war, and women have become incubators. If they don’t want to give birth, they’re simply not allowed to have an abortion—they’re not allowed to make decisions about their own bodies. And it’s getting worse every day.

I have no mouth, but I must scream.