“ necro here,, felt like posting somth for tonight “

“I felt quite horrible after today,,, tried to play sewh (somth evil will happen),,, a famous person from the leaderboard joined,,,, I felt uncomfortable as I knew they’d def be gonna grind the small server,,, then I tried to attack them once,,, ended up targetted nonstop for hours by them,,,, with my huge fear of ppl in general (from 5 years of irl trauma and our paranoia) I hated it,,, I tried to keep on avoiding them,,, they kept running and stalking me nonstop,,, if I wasn’t in their line of sight they went for someone else but only for a second before searching for me again,,,, then had to deal with this person targetting & stalking us nonstop,,,, “

“ ,,, Then I felt quite silly after I left from the game,,,, almost had a breakdown from ts,,, we wanted to report them in the discord server (also, to the system who wanted to friend me,, mm I changed the setting so u can friend us noww,,, shinjuu had them turned off someday),,, but then we saw how loved and popular they were (also cuz the rules sucked),,, as our autistic ass didn’t know if the devs saying “targetting doesn’t count until it’s stalking through games” also includes ingame stalking,,, also getting a ban just for forgetting to include “important” info for a report?,,, jeez they’re worse than forsaken,,, “

“ yet,,, I’m still scared of trying to report them for it as it might get my ass banned ingame,,, which means months of playing wasted while some weirdo who has over 60k wins & 4K kills gets to go freely and harass more ppl (most likely not even hard earned) “

“ in a game like ts it might rlly seem over dramatic,,, but it still fucking terrified me. HORRIBLY, gave me fucking flashbacks,,, from when in a game some guy kept harassing me,,,,I asked him to stop,,, he said it was “ragebait”,,, then we left game as it was making me uncomfortable,,, changed games,,, somehow he found me (I didn’t add him RO anything),,,, even had him blocked,,, yet he still joined my game to harass me more,,, had a mental breakdown after that the whole day,,,, had our bf try to comfort us,,,, still ain’t over that experience,,,, “

“ ,,,,weird vent Ik,,,, but we’ll make more bots tomr,,, if motivation comes up,,, we usually rot in bed for hours,,, feeling too ashamed of ourselves to do anything,,, before we bring ourselves to actually do somth,,, “

“ gn ya’ll,,, necro out for now,,, “