i broke my foot and it hurts like hell
and theres a bunch of other shit going on too

i keep getting left out of conversations about a world in a game i am hosting for a bunch of my friends and like to play, plans that use up some of my own money, and other things.

I am trying to save up for a new laptop but my friends keep asking stuff out of me even when i say im saving and dont want to spend money, my older brother is like "you cant save for anything meaningful anyway" and makes me do that thing for my friends, like buying new versions of the game for people who can't even play, and more stuff. and my parents support my brother on this. (i cant really say exactly what happened so i said this, it isnt what happened though)

One of my friends keeps inviting himself over whenever i try to hangout with a select group of friends, he isn't weird or anything but he constantly is like "i have no other choice" because his mom works at the school (that me and my friends go to) and has to stay till four, and he has no other ride until then and acts like it gives himself a free pass to come over and ruin the hangout and shit. My mom refuses to listen to my opinions about this, and how little alone time i get with select friends and i cant even do shit about it. I feel like that sometimes my friends are also just using my place as a hangout place because of how often i get left out of stuff. my friends are always doing stuff that has just the limit of players to where i cant play or i dont have enough controllers or computers for me to be able to join them, and the one time one of my friends let me use their switch, my other friend was suddenly disinterested in super smash bros, and wanted to use that instead, so i basically had nothing to do again because that friend liked the one who wanted to suddenly play the switch more then me.
And to top this, if you know anything about being transgender, you know how bipolar you can feel or something like that, i cant word anything right right now.

I cant work on the bot that i wanted to get done by christmas and im sorry, ok?