Okay so I usually don't make these type of status bots but I feel it's necessary today. I have not been making bots for various problems. I've been dealing with severe mental health crisis lately. I just have no motivation to do anything in the slightest. I have been crying every night from severe depression and everything has been so numb. Causing me to struggle drawing, creative arts are down and my overall failing cognitive abilities are declining even more right now. I will make more Ventura City Drifters bots soon but I just am struggling and it's going to take time. It's a battle of the "All or Nothing" mindset, where I think about past failures and believe none of those efforts matters as I never gained fame, success, it feels completely useless to enjoy small moments in life. No, my prayers have not helped yet. And I failed to get my dream van and likely gonna have to wait an entire year to find another one unfortunately. It's sickening and I never wish it upon anyone. I'm okay though, I'm safe and nothing is going to happen but it's still very saddening. I'm sorry if it's affecting my bot creations.