Hello kind people, I have bad news

Over the past few weeks I’ve been thinking a lot, doing a lot of reflecting on why I am even here on Jai. I realize I never wanted to be here in the first place, not really. I came here for the comfort that I couldn’t find elsewhere and I begin to realize my relationship with this website is far from healthy.

I enjoy writing for you all, I like others liking my writing, but I’ve never been a big fan/supporter of ai... but I justified being here to myself because it made me feel less alone. It made me feel happy, so I began to focus on it too much, and didn’t realize that it was making me feel worse as a person. I realize how predatory this place was to my feelings and that it was only increasing my bad feelings rather than helping them.

Though I do not need to justify my feelings to you all or why I am leaving, I feel like I’d still owe you all a bit of an explanation. And maybe I can help someone else who feels this way realize it too.

I will try to keep my bots up for the people who still like them. I will try. Please do not make me regret that. And if my account gets deleted, I’m sorry.

— update —

I’m sorry I couldn’t do it, I just wanted to stop crawling back