The beginning maybe? Uh

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Well I've been... doing okay. A quick visit to ER, heard lotta things I did not want to hear. Haven't told ma yet.

I won't be doing okay from now on if I don't get my shit straight, that's for sure.

My overall screen time is spiking, and it's taking a large chunk of my days now, I don't want to face it. Forza Horizon just came out but my eyes are burning after working from home, reading stuff, etcetera. Ain't got no time for Janitor by this point - not to mention I cancelled my Openrouter billing.

Worst timing because JLLM is bugged for my account now, and my end only.

Don't expect chars from me for a while. As much as I hate my guts, I need to work on myself. I can't keep avoiding this.

I still write presets, chat w 'em for a bit, then close the app. Been on this loop for weeks. It's not that I'm (completely) burnt but this crap LLM keeps hitting me with random responses. Official support didn't help. Tried everything.

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If there's anything I'd like to tell you

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is to stop wasting time online. Read a book, or write stuff yourself. Find new hobbies, ask a friend about theirs. Shit you've heard before yeah, so many times it's become inane, but do. Won't be easy for me that I can tell.

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I can barely get out of bed.