I... Yeah, I don’t know how to fucking say it. Just know that I'll tackle heavy topics about myself.

Hey. Hi. Hello. Hello to the 50 of you who followed me.

It’s been a long time.

I hope you had forgotten about me.

I'll try to explain what happened and why I left for a little moment... It’ll just be very chaotic. I'm under opioids (or whatever you write that as, idk) while writing this, so I won’t be really good. As if I ever was.

Firstly, I am so, SO sorry. I might've disappointed some people with this disappearance. I'm sorry. I changed my phone (which was the thing I used for writing and creating bots), and I basically forgot which email I registered this account with 💀... I just remembered that I had this one mail, and well, the account was on it.

Also, thank you for the support. I saw some comments on my last bot which kinda left me tearing up a bit. Y'all are so fucking good for a stranger.

Now... what actually happened? (Vent drop because I need to, tbh.)

Well, as you saw with my bots... I was NOT in the best shape mentally. 2025 was really a fucking year, and I hated it, so yeah. High school already took a toll on my mental health with exams and all... which led me to basically want to before reaching 18 and seeking pain through... well, self-harm. My left forearm was really not looking good (even though it never left permanent scars, I still don’t know how the I did that).

Mind you, this was all before creating this account. My birthday was on July 20, my account got created on August 5... so yeah, I went into this account with the BEST mindset ever (sarcasm, of course).

At the same time, I went to uni. I met good people, and I actually thought that I might be okay now... I mean, it, I even had a girlfriend. God bless her — she helped me with so much shit even if she doesn’t know that. So I stopped SH and got a little bit happy.

Then finals came. And she also dumped me. So yeah, I went back to my old habits. I actually got to the point of planning to this time, but one of my friends really helped me out on that one.

As of today, nothing has changed. I'm still in a miserable state, but at least I have someone to count on. I actually gave her all of my blades today in order to force myself to stop SH. Will it work? Who knows.

However, I'm still shitty. I'm still the same dumbass who doesn’t take care of himself. I can’t even cry anymore.

Don’t be like me.

Seek help as soon as you need it. To REAL people.

You don’t want to end up like me.

This account is not going to be deleted. I might actually go back to creating bots. It’ll depend on my mood. The themes will also depend on my mood. I'm kinda feeling too down to create heavy-angst bots. Or I might, if y’all want — I don’t really care.

If y’all have suggestions, drop them down.

Again, I'm terribly sorry for this stupid bot. I'm sorry for leaving, and I'm sorry for being this miserable. I just needed to speak.