Clouddrop by Jamie Paige

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Hour five of driving and my head is held askew

Every time I cross the roadside, it always feels a bit too soon

Not a single thought inside me that isn't burned with self-abuse

And if I couldn't even help myself, I wonder what's the use?

Windows echo phonemes out towards our point of view

Watch them falling on the outer roads all beaten black and blue

I could talk you deaf for hours, god, I'd give my world to you

So remember, all I wanna do

Is to see you riding off the other way and drifting out of view

Sometimes I beat myself to death over a pastime

I keep a bullet with my name against my head

From fourth to fifth I feel the seatbelt crush my insides

And wonder how it's gonna feel when I am

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Baby, do I know what it's like to fear

Just living for the day you can disappear

'Cause damn it, anywhere's better off than here

But I don't think you know what it's like to die

To see the sparkle fade from inside your eye

So if it's up to me, you won't learn this time

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Wheels slide on pavement down a road I've never known

I dragged a knife upon my everything and carved the meat to bone

I wanna cut myself to pieces, rend myself with sticks and stone

But if I tomorrow

I wouldn't ha—

—ave the chance to know

(Let the bass go)

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Sitting down in silence, I approach the speed of sound

All my ignorance made manifest like raindrops falling down

Peel my body off the pavement, set in concrete, solid ground

"What's the point in loving anything if you won't be around?"

Awful thoughts might break me, so I simply stare in awe

All the tensions hit a fever pitch, and then the chord resolves

On the outside of myself, a eulogy and constant pall

My companion staring down the edge and wishing she could fall (And wishing I could fall)

"What the hell is wrong with me?" I spit towards the light

I can't hear the words I wanna hear if I let go of life

So I sit and watch in silence with my heart and appetite

Knowing all that I could ever want

(All I wanna do is to do you right)

(じゃ)

(Dream together, we can—)

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Baby, do you know what you wanna hear?

'Cause you can say the word, make it all so clear

Or you can sit around, watch it disappear

So darling, do you know what you wanna say?

It only takes an instant to slip away

But if you grab ahold, let the message play

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I'm not scared of dying, I'm just scared of running dry

I wanna save myself from sorrow, thinking pain is justified

And if I leave this mortal coil, I deserve to feel some pride

I don't want to die tomorrow, I wanna live my fucking life

I want to fly

I don't wanna die

Drop on out the atmosphere, we'll dance the night away

You've got far too many colors for some hopeless shade of grey

Where the clouds that block the sun out never seem to overstay

Find the northern star and navigate

Grab that wheel and break away

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Hour nine of driving and I'm hopelessly askew

Every time I greet the cliffside, I never seem to follow through

So when I turn myself around, I hope I'm facing you