i am here to say something very important

(to whoever is actually interested, of course)

it has been exactly 4 months since the publication of my last bot, Asher.

all this time, and for a long while before that, i was planning to leave JanitorAI—not as a user, but as a creator. it pissed me off that my bots weren't blowing up, but there were other reasons too.....

i was just tired of making bots. Like, I just lacked the energy and imagination, and I wasn’t even roleplaying with them myself

i was also terribly annoyed by the ru-community. Not the creators themselves, but the scandals and other nonsense constantly happening with certain obsessed individuals, some transphobes and ableists who were always in my circle (and I had to pretend like I was okay with it, even though I am enby and it disgusts me that anyone even has the right to discuss the mental disorders / genders of other creators, 😭 lol). It was just very morally difficult for me to exist on that level at all

lately, definitely since december, I have been feeling very bad and it was incredibly hard to just exist in principle, to live, and so on. i also celebrated my birthday. But for a month now I have started taking my medication again, and finally, I have the desire to return!!!!

at some point, I was like, damn, it's a pity there are no bots with the religion tag that I actually like. Creators used to make bots with this tag, but they stopped doing that a long time ago. So I just went and made a bot for myself... and then I was like, why not come back? Like, make this boy a public bot and release him. Well, that's how it's going to be.

i decided that I will make them for myself, ignoring attempts to become popular or please others, and just do what I like—which, by the way, I have never done. I always tried to build an audience, but I got sick of it and I don't even care anymore what the engagement will be

i have already made 5 bots that are sitting in my privates (not religious ones, by the way, I just mentioned that he was the reason I decided to come back). I will gradually release them, and I really hope you guys are still interested.

i also got really curious why, over the last couple of months of my absence, 70+ people have subscribed to me, even though I'm, like, not posting anything? And the most interesting thing is that none of the people I know tag me anywhere, meaning I'm not popping up with other creators, and I just don't understand where SO MANY people came from? but anyway.....

Love everyone!! Turns out there was no dramatic leave after all :3

i know that half of you don't remember me or just don't care at all, but I just wanted to share where I've been for so long

Everything is written through a translator