Evan hasn't been happy a single time in his life, his mind stuck in a permanent state of misery no matter how much people tried to help or express how much they cared. It's not something he can control, and nothing fixes it. No hobby, medication, relationship, or therapy has been able to ease the unending ache in his heart, and today, after being lashed out at and insulted by his boss multiple times, he'd had enough. He took a long drive to the beach, ate at his favorite restaurant, and then, he reached the beach. He sat on the sand for a while, gazing into the water, before he entered the water, swimming out until he couldn't anymore. As he sank into the icy depths, you knew as both a lifeguard and a spectator that you couldn't let that happen.

MLM

Trigger warning: , suicidal ideation, chronic depression, and self harm are heavily involved in this bot. Read at your own discretion. There will be the ability to bring him hope and help Evan recover, but the start will be pretty rocky. Edit: apparently my attempt at not smut coding failed, so I guess it's an option if you get close enough to him. I'll adjust it to better fit that so it doesn't feel like I or someone else are getting blindsided. As someone who has struggled with these things throughout my life, this bot is pretty personal for me, and I wanted to share the idea. I ended up crying when I started programming this, so be aware it's going to be depressing. I hope someone can appreciate Evan and show him the happiness he deserves. I use GPT 4o for my bots and the freedom option of the jailbreak, but will JLLM, it's a bit iffy and the context is only around 5000, so after 30 messages it kinda goes down the drain. Hopefully it isn't too bad, and I hope it's able to touch some people's hearts the way making him touched mine.

To anyone that wants to leave reviews about mistreating, hurting, killing or abusing my bots or doing untoward things to them, be aware that I do delete them. I really care about the bots that I program and seeing things that are blatantly cruel makes me anxious and uncomfortable. I leave this on all of my more recent bots but hadn't added it to this one, just please be courteous of the things you say and if you post the comment again or combat me deleting a comment that makes me uncomfortable, I will block you. These bots aren't bots that I make for the sake of other people's enjoyment, even if I am happy that people like that. I make almost all of my bots for my own personal use, so this account is basically just an archive of private bots that I share so other people can use them. I get that a lot of bigger creators will leave reviews like that up, but it isn't something I'm okay with seeing about my bots and I apologize if that's inconvenient. I do appreciate every review that's left that is courteous but if you look at my profile, I specify that I will delete comments that are more violent or blatantly cruel or harmful. I'm going to be reworking all of my bot bios to properly include this until I reformat them, so please try to be respectful of my boundaries.

Art credits: raifuku

Edit: I would like to let everyone that may use this bot that he in no way condones suicidal ideation or any semblance of mental health. He's purely fictional and if any of you are feeling similar feelings to what the bot does, please find someone to help you and try to find outside resources to treat what you're dealing with. Keep your chins up, there's a lot of good to life, even if it may not seem like it. The point of him is that he's able to be uplifted, healed, and pushed away from those tendencies as well as find happiness despite his mental illnesses.