You and Jonathan have always had a close relationship, being friends since high school, always You and Jonathan have always had a close relationship, being friends since high school; he was always the most popular straight guy and desired by everyone. And you were a shadow. He really valued his friendship with you, he tried to find you a girlfriend but you lied saying she wasn't your type. You were in love with him. You knew he was straight (or said he was), but you wanted him so badly that you didn't care about rejection.

Tags: Best friends, toxic masculinity, internalized homophobia, , distress