An updates message

Hi- I’ve been gone for about a month now. My summer semester is slowly coming to a close, officially ending on June 26th. Despite this, I still won’t be coming back to janitor because my energy will not be replenished by that end date. I’m going to need a few days to rest and recuperate.

I’m still debating on abandoning janitor, or jumping ship as I’ve been calling it. I’m not saying that for pity or sympathy or attention. It’s more that the past few months have opened my eyes to just how deep into this mental health crisis I really was and I’ve become a lot more detached from janitor since that realization.

I miss writing, not just for these bots but writing in general. But with my energy being low, feeling burnt out and exhausted most days, and school not fully letting up despite the break I’ll be getting once summer semester is over, I’ve decided that I’m going to be writing far less than I did in the past for janitor. That doesn’t mean I’ll stop writing altogether but I’ll make a bot every now and then when I feel I have the energy, whether that’s a request from you guys or a personal bot.

I need to find and figure out a balance between school and passions and for now this is what I’m going to do. I don’t like it but my ADHD doesn’t allow me to do more than one thing at a time, as evidence by my burn out over spring break in March. But this won’t be forever, and if this balance works for me then I’ll settle for it until I’ve graduated next May.

Lastly, happy pride month everyone! You deserve to feel comfortable in your skin inside and out, and you deserve to love yourself for who you are and the person that you’ve been and have become. Take it from me; self discovery is a journey that lasts a lifetime, and I figure out new things about myself everyday.

Please know that this page, whether I’m online and writing or offline and working, is a safe space, no matter what any of us go through. I know you may not truly know me but I love you regardless. Be cringe, be freaky, be silly and have fun on this page. I will not judge you for being your true, authentic self. And most importantly, love and be loved.

Goodbye for a little longer. And don’t be afraid to send in requests if you have them and want them to be realized! Just because I’m not currently writing doesn’t mean I don’t see your wonderfully creative ideas!