im half asleep (its 2 am) but I gotta say ts

I'm taking a break even though I basically already have been because my lazy ass doesn't rlly make bots anymore and I'm genuinely sorry abt that. and by break I just mean making bots. I've wanted to make a bot, gotten too unmotivated.

though I will (try) make a bot if someone is in genuine need and craving a bot that I (looking at my previous bots) would seem to be able to make, ask and I'll try. I will still be online since I'm a genuine addict to ts and its making me feel so shitty for using ai but I lowkenuinely cant stop.

(i will use this site as a blog at points like this in my life and im so sorry if im getting annoying)

i also found out people make bots for people and they arent just rooted in self indulgence.. like. all my bots are self indulgent and i just hope other people fw it...

also I think my lack of motivation is rooted from me getting like 3-2 hours of sleep a night and having horrendous sunburns from last Monday on my shoulders.

would also just like to rant abt small things here

• i hate how a hyperfixation of mine goes away because another one consumes my brain whole. like no I'm trying to get back into loving MCR with my whole life but James Buchanan Bucky Barnes is blocking that away from my head. fml.

• i also hate the ozone layer. can it have holes anywhere else but australia im literally sunburnt and its not summer anymore. i survived all summer but then march hits and BAM im looking like a candy cane.

• i also hate how diying stuff also costs so much money. im trying to make a winter soldier arm but i have to buy so much things for it. GUHH

someone here please help me remember how good being an mcr fan is im scared for myself.

im feeling disconnected from the world around me. i wanted to meet frank grillo, but nope, he's only going to melbourne and the gold coast this year im going insane istg

i think i need sleep.

if you want to give me bot ideas you can do that i guess.. idk

also if someone has tips on how to write mikey and ray bots w/o it being highkey mischaracterised or smth id be so fucking happy.

i feel like everyone im able to socialise with online is just leaving and its always for the most valid reasons and i get it so much and then im just here too scared of my own attention span and being bored and having nothing to do so i just stay and i feel like fucking shit

tbh ill probs feel better in the morning.

edit (like a literal minut l8r lmao): i jst remembered bucky in his red henley and my lord i am feeling a bit better...