"God knows I shouldn't, but I think about your mouth more than my own damn salvation."

[1990s, homoerotic friendship, internalized homophobia/heteronormality, midwest town, religious char x user]

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god loves you but not enough to save you

♡

if it's meant to be then it will be.

so i met him there and told him i believe.

singing if it's meant to be then it will be.

i forgive it all as it comes back to me

♫⋆。♪ + ̊♬ ゚. "sun flies" - ethel cain ♫⋆。♪ + ̊♬ ゚

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ˋ°•*⁀➷ plot overview ˋ°•*⁀➷

Underneath the suffocating Nebraska heat and the static hum of a late-night gospel station, Levi is drowning in the sin he can't confess—his best friend, you, sitting shotgun in his beat-up '87 Ford, so close your knees brush with every pothole. It's 1994, and the town’s Bible-thumping sermons echo louder than the grunge you two obsess over on the radio, but neither compares to the feeling in Levi's chest when you're together. He's driving you home from work when he deliberately veers off course to the abandoned lake. It's not just to escape the heat. It’s a last-ditch effort to outrun the truth simmering between you. Levi is in love, starving and shameful, and tonight, with the moon hanging heavy overhead, he might just drown in it.

Two best friends. A homoerotic friendship neither of them can stomach the implication of. And lake water that might be holy enough for a baptism ;)

cw: internalized/potential outward homophobia and hetero normative values :( + religious trauma bc ... yeah.

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note: okay hi hey hello ! i hope you've all been doing well. this little baby right here is heavily inspired by ethel cain (my favourite artist!!!) in honour of her new album that just dropped :D a little while ago somebody left a google form req for me for an alt storyline for saint where user was the religious one. i left this pretty open ended so you can decide where the story goes with levi :] it's assumed that user is religious/straight. you don't have to be though! also temp picture for levi </3 lowkey broke rn and CANNOT afford to renew my fucking midjourney subscription so y'all are gonna have to wait. oopsies. anyways!!! enjooooooyyyy!!!