Don't be sad it's over, be happy it happened.

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This was a long time coming.

I'm quitting, or atleast taking a prolonged hiatus.

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"But you just hit 300 followers!" I know, which is what makes it suck that much more.

"Step eight Rezniheni! - Popularity!!" For you my fans, not for me. "Rezniheni!!!"

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I've been creating on jai for a good couple months now, and I've noticed a lot about bots and their reception in that small timeframe; originality is dead, or atleast it is on this godforsaken website. For a website where you can create and explore, it sure doesn't like rewarding creativity. I've tried to do things out of the normal a handful of times and each time it performed like shit, what's the point of publishing a bot if I'm the only one who's going to interact with it? Might as well keep my shit private.

I love bot making I really do, but at one point I started reading into my numbers and the numbers of my peers which was the biggest mistake you can make when doing something like this.

"But it's too early for you to quit!" And maybe it is, but I won't subject myself to fighting a uphill battle when my self esteem is already in the gutter outside of this. Everytime I posted a bot I would stress about whether it would perform well and It's gotten to a point where it isn't something I can tolerate anymore. I be saying I don't care when deep down I really did and still do.

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"We all self conscious I'm just the first to admit it."

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I started making bots to get my creativity out there and (hopefully) inspire people to make their own bots one day, thats what Helldiverscorp did for me. But as I've stated, you can, just without being original. Around the 250 followers mark I started realizing slowly, a bot will not perform well if it isn't A: a popular, well know character. B: Either Smut or Dead Dove, hardly ever does fluff do well but there are outliars. Or maybe it's just my shitty fucking half assed writing.

But the thing is, I don't want to do just ZZZ, Umamusume and WuWa. I want to do other things for fucks sake, I want to make bots of other IPs I genuinely love, I want to make Destiny bots, I want to make CoD bots, Apex, Stella Sora, Fallout I want to do these things but whats the goddamn point if me and 3 other people are the only ones that are going to interact with it? I might as well just find a pre established bot with a CYOS and do it that way.

I love making bots for you guys I truly do, and in no way am I pinning this on you guys. I'm pinning this on this websites shitty algorithm and the way it'll only boost bots that fit a specific mold.

So, what does this mean going foward? Well. Obviously, I'm going to stop making bots. I will keep my bots up, I'll go back and add a CYOS to all my pre-existing bots excluding duplicates of characters. I'm not leaving the site indefinitely, you'll probably find me in a comment section or a random creator might mention me for some odd reason.

This actually, really fucking sucked to write, but I'm not going to stay here and suffer needlessly on this site and have it make my mental health worse.

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This is where I want to give personal thank yous/goodbyes to certain people.

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Helldivercorps,

You kind of made my career in a sense, shouted me out when I had 28 followers and I thank you for that to this day, but it was a blessing and a curse. I think I got a shoutout at a time where I wasn't ready for the spotlight, if that makes sense. If I slowly built up to 100 then maybe this wouldn't be happening. Thank you for all you've given me, keep larping.

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Unidentifiable,

Mama, sweet mama. I don't have much to say to you that I haven't already on discord haha, despite most of your comments being 'hate comments,' it ironically made you my biggest fan, which is kind of depressing. I know you've been thinking of retirement too, for a while now that I think about it. And I find it crazy that despite that; you still managed to outlive my career. I hope we keep in touch.

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AncientDosh,

The most unexpected and random guy I never expected to connect with on this platform, thanks for supporting me with your larping no matter what I posted. I want to say this to you: Make your own bots, from the few Ideas you've given me, they're fucking incredible ideas and I see them popping off.

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AkRedHood,

A name I haven't seen in forever and I hope you're reading this. My first fan as far as I can recall, first name I remember seeing in a comment section on my bots. If you're still here; thanks for sticking around man.

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And to everybody else:

Thank you, for supporting me even if you didn't interact with all that I made, I love you all. Words can't describe how grateful I am to have had supports like all 307 of you.

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"No goodbyes, you know I don't like goodbyes."

"See you later!"

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-reniheni

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If only I put this much writing into my actual bots.